Twinkle twinkle little star !!!

Life has bountiful to offer...It taught me very single moment and it continues to do so.. Sometimes I wonder what had I done in life..it had to treat me like this...
Why should I go through all this humiliation ?? In spite of having all possible required things , why should I be the one to suffer all this..
Only answer, God chose me to face this..HE found me strong enough to go through all this...I am THE Chosen one...what am I doing this way?
what am I achieving...?? Two years of my life ....some 10 years before...you live in an illusion..you feel used..and then you never understand why this ever happened in your life.

Man proposes and God disposes they say; somehow it happens for good..
an overwhelming feeling, a burden bogs me down at this moment. I just remember all the occurrences - series of events all way through. I think I am born to go through this. somethings which appear so beautiful only in imaginations..only in dreams..when they come to reality they are so fake..so much so..that you get disgusted even at the thought of those. I seriously wonder if I would ever like to keep the memory of this happenings.


I have done the weirdest things in my life...this week was a mess..The things which people will think twice before doing..morally/ethically/socially acceptable???
Million dollar questions.You start wondering at this stage ..how do you define these words..again coming to a conclusion that everything is relative. This thought comes when you cross all the boundaries..and reach a horizon, when it hardly ever matters to you...you get cheated and duped...but these words don't matter much.
You understand the topic is closed "end of topic" to be precise in his words; the chapter is closed.
Relations never can be pulled and made, they just happen...why do they have names...names/definitions all relative..only to make your lives simple..as Sir says "Human beings tend to find meaning in whatever they sense" !!

Quite true!! Just like the constellations...
The sun signs..Sagittarius/Scorpio..etc etc..
the ones those we saw on the night of 22nd Jan..what a night it was...pitch dark.. 45mins of deep meditation solace, never felt like opening the eyes. When I opened my eyes...realization of the outer world made me nervous...
I was lucky enough..God had sent me an angel, HE knew I needed some help to handle that state of my mind. Those merciful warm hands...lifting my cheeks up, consoling me.. Grabbing my arms to run in the night sky, watching those stars...I felt I went some 20 years back...Some moments are only yours...The LRC study after that..I never studied...but what a night it was...And also the evening on the 26th of Dec...our church trip...the tonga/the food the trod on the dark path..everything was amazing..one after the other a series of events all in those 40 mins...I felt as if I have lived my life in those moments...
I wouldn't have written my midterms w/o him. It was just just not possible.
Stars tell it all..you meet someone, its on the stars, you are stuck with someone- again the stars. They decide your destiny. They give you power to live, to think and to decide. They govern your life !!!

Thanks for the friend who made me realize this power of stars !!!


"Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder where you are;
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky !!!"