Untouched.........

I felt the urge strongly to put this down. I like the silence in the mess when no one is around. I had gone early...wanted to enjoy my cup of tea...looking outside the window..with the trickles of drops...all the afternoon..I could the watch the rain from the library windows..it hadnt stopped all the afternoon.and seemed like it wont...I decided to get drenched all the way to the canteen...it wasn't far after all.
Silence is solace. It helps you to introspect so much. Staying away from the hustle and bustle of the city, it is a bliss in way. Though at times we curse for it..But being in the company of nature is truly a bliss. When I get up in the morning a cloudy sky awaits me...The farms around..the greenery calls me to strode in it...when I start for my walk, I feel the earth is ready to put on her show..a beautiful sight of the narrow main road over the horizon, Panchubhai getting ready for the day...his tea shop on both the sides..The security watchman greeting me..the maids sweeping the garden. Life hadn't asked for more.

The drops had something to say. They were telling something from yesterday..I was listening ..I was interpreting...something which my mind was constantly hinting at..Its amazing actually. Whatever you have to say, you feel, why the nature has to reciprocate the same feelings ..why you start interpreting in your own convenient ways...you take it for granted...all things happening around are happening for you..reflecting your mental state. I have to write an exam tomorrow..still I am writing this ...its been so strong..

Why did I say what I said ...and I am not at all sorry for that. I do not regret. Why had I to be so harsh to him ? Was it the subject itself..or was it the background that I carried days before..I had been possesive. Why relations make you so possesive ? I am trying to reason out. Why are relations so complex? What does a mere touch hold...a soothing touch ..a friendly touch...an ecstatic touch...and untouched !!! Should I be so possesive....And even if I shouldn't be, then even this thought is not satisfying.
I kept thinking even after talking to my closet friend. She convinced me for the moment and then even then I rolled back on the same issues. Why had I held back myself so long..why had I all this principles in the world? Why should I remain so abstained? Does that really count? Really matter? I know only belief matters..but does that mean just you say and that's over. How do you keep integrity?



Is it like the drops of water falling over the ground..so pristine ...so pure ..untouched...then losing its existence to the pond, losing its individuality and becomes one with it. Doesn't that count in a relation? Don't we have to have any protocols..I wish to be like the drops of water pristine and pure..untouched...and now at least if I expect the same from him..is it wrong? Why did I mix my emoitons...wanted to blurt out something else and it ended up in something else.

Diverse backgrounds..diverse values..long distance relationships...parenal pressures..how long am I stand this...why is life like this...I have stopped feeling bad and good about anything..nothing makes a difference now. Stopped feeling strongly about anything. I don't even know if what I did ..did it right? Or then had I any other option.

Why does life has to hold so many questions all at one moment? And why have you to just keep the faith going? With no foundations..imaginary bonds..all in the air.
Insecurity always remains...what if that bond gets broken...who has seen tomorrow ?


Any answers???

Infusing Young Blood in Indian Politics

A humorous quote by our former prime minister A.B.Vajpayee : " A politician is born at the age of 50, attains teenage at the age of 60, and becomes young at the age of 70". Right from the when our country became free, Indian politics is highly dominated by octogrerarain ministers, most of whom are still aspirants for the post of prime minister. With due reverence to their knowledge, work and experience earned over the years, I would still like to confrnt that to enable India accelerate yhe rate at which it is going around 9 p.a., India deserves a better young leadership. Aged personalities with their outdated visions and limited physical capabitlites can hardly pace up with the rate at which global economy is growing.

In the present cabinet of Union Ministers, as also in the state governments we are having lot of miministers and MPs like Rahul gandhi, Jyotiraditya Scindia, sachin Pilot, Priya dutt, Supriya sule, to mention a few, representing the fresh blood and fresh face of Indian political scenario. This advent is certainly a ray of hope of India's future. The youth brigade is armoured with highly qualifying degrees, from India or abroad and enriching work experience in their respective fields, is highly willing to take over the leadership of the nation. this picture is highly motivating and inspiring. young leaders have a broad vision, a novel positive outlook to look at things in the today's world, zeal to compete with the rapidly developing economy and long cherished dream to enable India as a well-developed nation down the line.

This has led to massive recruitment drive, seeking to draw in youth in politics across the country. Earlier politics was restricted to certain strata & sections of the society, but now the view by which an ordinary man looks at politics has undergone a substantial change. There is a hope that these young leaders will make the system more transparentand not m,erely work to enhance their votebanks; therby building a sense of trustin the commoners and strengthening the principle of democracy on which the indian government system is based.

At this point, I would like to mention that when on the global stage we have the US residential aspirant Obama, international leaders like Gordon Brown , Nicolas Sarzoky in their late 50s, back home, India will see a 37 year old Rahul pitting against an 82-year old Advani !! I feel the veterans should now take a back seat and let the reins of the government in the hands of the young blood, guiding them with thei8r experience.


After all, the age old adage goes..."New broom sweep well" !!!

*My speech at he interview of placecom in IMT

Gurukul ???

Hmmm...its been long since I am posting on this..
No no..that doesn't mean I had no time to write...Time I had lots...and matter also lots...so much had happend in life..and so much was in anticipation...Its like sometimes god gives you so much at a time...that you just don't know how to handle it all..so much joy..so much sorrow..But I had none..neither joy nor sorrow...just happening, incidents..one after the other... One thing is for sure...
In due course life gave me lot to ponder upon, lot to think on...experiences that will enrichen my life even further..

Leaving something in the hand, when you are not even sure you are going to get anything better..just on the intuition, the inner voice which tells ..go..get going..!!I was sure I was not going to stand the IT life any more..Not that it was bad..but it was not made for me..and the worst part is you cannot convince the society...something which is so abstract..so uncertain..you cannot ask the others to believe in you...why will they..or rather why should they..

But this was not exactly bothering me,somewhere deep down the mind, I was thoroughly sure, this will work out. I was so uninterested in seeking other jobs..did things just for doing its sake...finally after a long long wait things worked out...God's grace...and yes now I am here..

When you really want something to happen, the whole universe conspires so that your wish comes true.
- Alchemist

Why have I started liking this adage so much...no clue..but somehow I have become a staunch believer in this dictum.

Talking about the life over here, not much has been exhilarating. though I am satisfied with what I am doing, the work, the subjects...and the satiation of curious soul...other than that..everything is so incomplete...
The culture especially...very hard to get along...indigestible.In this secluded clean environment, I feel so alone..apart from the outer world, not that I was very social and outgoing, but still I find I am much beyond all this...something which these people have not understood, or perhaps not even thought of. I had alwasy this feeling in mind, something like you are much ahead of your times, your generation. People may label me as they wish..but its later they realise, something was striking, perhaps ahead of times.
I need to get adjusted to those, be flexible, humble.

With humility and love, flexibility becomes natural.

Expression: In order to be flexible we need to have the virtue of humility. With humility we will be willing to understand the people around and their behaviour. Then we will also be able to have love for them. This automatically brings flexibility within us.

Experience: When we come across people who are not being cooperative, we need to become humble and try to understand what the they are communicating, if not through words at least through their actions. When we are able to listen with love andunderstanding, we will no more be rigid but can easily adapt ourselves.

Professional education doesn't necessarily mean you lose the pious purpose of education alltogether. Just as in the OB class today ..we learnt ethics are much a part of business...and no one can stand long term unethically...hope these guys out here understand...

I have lot of hopes carryng, lot to achieve, not to prove to others, but to myself...
I will try my best !!!
Good Luck to me ....